Winter Walk

I Have Given In...

I finally joined Facebook; mostly because I needed a distraction from the recent heartache... But hey now I get to keep in touch with some people I wouldn't necessarily keep in touch with, which I guess is the whole point. I'm still learning my way around the site and feeling majorly out of the loop on the whole thing. Anyways, someone invited me to "YoVille." It's a little virtual world that I don't understand, BUT, now we have, "Virtual Jen." And what's better than that? Well, a chocolate goat I suppose. But I ate him.

january 3, 2009

so when it's finally over
and the pain is real and the dust has yet to settle
when it's finally over
and it's never what you thought it would be - and hardly what you wanted
when it's finally over
hindsight because so much more than 20/20 - it's an ache that rattles in your core
when it's finally over
and you see how much love there was that has been lost
when it's finally over
is when you don't want it to be over the most

Why Some People Suck

I am big advocate of Ebay - most of the time. I work in products, so I have a full grasp of mark up and margin, so why pay full price if you don't have to? Recently I purchased some Victoria's Secret mukluks on Ebay. A week or so later I found out the seller was no longer a member and my auction had been deleted. Ebay let me know I should contact Paypal to get my money back, but that they could not tell me why this person was no longer a member. So, clearly shady.

Here's what gets me about people... You are that smart to take the time to plan how to use people's information to steal from them, why not take that energy and get a real job, open your own business, do something constructive; stop making the world a worse place for you existing in it.

I just cannot understand how cruel and selfish people can be. I am not perfect by any means, and I know that I can be a bitch, but I would never go out of my way to wrong someone who has never done anything to me.

I have all of their seller's info, not that it would stay the same if they relisted items on ebay. I also have their name, location and phone number; so if you would like to know who to avoid on ebay, I can let you know.

Waiting for the C Train

A Day at the Met

Bored to Productivity

There is a lot going on in my life right now. Well, not a lot, more like one big energy consuming thing. So I have been trying to clear my head so that I can think more clearly. Part of that involved spending a weekend alone. I know I watch too much tv, so I struggled to find things to fill my Sunday that were not television related. Eventually I found myself looking up how to do effects in Photoshop. (See if I am left alone and pushed to the point of absolute boredom, I become productive. Not sure why I can't just sit down and do something constructive in the first place, but whatever, call it a process.) For most of my friends what I am going to paste below is likely one of the most simple things you can do to make an image more interesting... BUT I just learned it and I think it's cool. Behold a product of my boredom:

(before) (after)

I Learned It From Watching You

I'm staging a silent protest

Borne of hope, love lost and poise

I'm mapping out a revolution

While you ignore me as white noise

The words run off my tongue now

I don't believe them anymore than before

But still I keep marching forward

The distance growing evermore

I see you in the hazy background

I miss everything we once were

But you are no longer that man

And I am no longer her

A Metaphor, brought to you by The Beach

Ghost

I asked you to read my writing
But you said no
I asked you to come away with me
But you would not go
I stood naked in front of you
But you did not give me a glance

If I stood in your way screaming
I wonder if you'd even care
If I cried and explained myself to you
Until my soul was raw and bare
If I starved myself to be picturesque for you
Maybe then I'd have a chance

I have become invisible
I am alone

Dakota

I finally got myself a piano. It's still kind of surreal, since I've wanted one for so long. I still can't believe I get to play everyday. I don't think it's any sort of overstatement to say that having her fills a big hole in my heart. I couldn't be happier about it. Meet, Dakota...

Amsterdam

Prayer

Notre Dame

Louvre

A Dream Come True

Germany

Kölner Dom

Germany

Smoots!

Harvard Bridge, Boston, Massachusetts